The Sheltered Child

I just got the function pictures from him today. And while function was indeed fun, I'm looking forward to prom already. But I just can't believe there's only about 3 months left of high school! I know I've said this once, twice, maybe even a hundred times, but I'm going to keep on saying it because it's just so amazing.

And scary...

I entered this school 13 years ago as a 5-year old naive little kid and I'll soon be leaving as a very sheltered 17-year old who knows nothing else outside of here. I lack the experience of having to make new friends. (And kindergarten doesn't really count because everyone was new back then... and plus, that was so long ago anyway!) I don't know what it's like to be in a place where I know absolutely no one and I have to start from scratch and make friends with complete strangers. I've always had a friend who would be the one to introduce me to others so I would have a connection at least. It'll be hard... A real adventure, I'm sure...

Prom, senior sing practices, graduation... What am I missing?... Anyways, the year is coming to a close. It's kind of sad how I wasn't able to really come out of my shell until maybe last year at the earliest. I'm also kind of sad because I didn't really plan out my classes well and there are so many classes I would have liked to take like computer science, anthropology, mechanical drawing, astronomy... extra-curricular stuff. But I guess I could take those in college too... Don't know if I'll have time, though! I'll surely be busy with my degree and whatnot.

I'm still so childish, I think. Especially when I compare myself to other girls in my grade. I feel like I belong in middle school still, back with teams and sections and silly little daily problems that middle schoolers go through. I dont feel like I'm on the same level maturity-wise as I'm supposed to be.

I have this school to thank for that. It's done a good job of keeping me safe and sound. So much in fact, that I didn't feel the need to really work hard at people skills.... There was always someone who I could call my friend and I took that for granted. But I can't complain since this is probably the best I could have possibly gotten so I'm thankful...